They were watching her like a hawk, judging her.

(Finally I wrote a fictional post again. YAYY :D | Do read & lemme know how you found it!)

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She did things. She thought it was finally to put the past behind her, to move on.

Meera woke up early next morning, she wanted a proper new started, even if that meant going to bed early and waking up in dire need of coffee to find enough strength to brush her teeth!

She switched her phone on and went to freshen up. She returned to find 2 text messages. On was the standard spam message about winning a UK lottery. She shook her head and continued to the 2nd one.

It read :
" Hey there M! Good morning gorgeous. I wish you all the very best on this whole new start. And if you need someone to remind you that it is a brilliant plan when you start to lose faith, you have me. Have a great day! X"

This brought a radiant smile to her face! She knew she could count on him.. And this just went on to prove her right!

She replied with a thanks and went on with her day with boosted confidence.

(9 pm)

Meera had had a long day. But she felt good, she was still humming to herself. She decided to go online for a while to kind of take a break. She deserved it, she said to herself.

As she scrolled through the statuses and photos smiling every now and then, a chat box popped up.

• "How are you doing Meera?! It's been so long! What's up girl?"
• Hi .. I'm doing pretty good, thanks :) How are you?
• "What's going on in life? UPDATE ME! :D"
• Haha, not all that exciting Ria. Just a new job. It's going pretty good, today was my first day. The office looks wonderful Ria, you'd love it!
• "That sounds nice! I'm happy for you!"
• Aww. Thank you! What's new with you?
• "Ah, nothing. Same old, same old. Achha listen, what's with the new boyfriend haan?"
• I'm sorry, what? Come again? WHAT BOYFRIEND?!!
• "You're talking to me babe, drop the act. Heard you're all lovey dovey with Ranjith-whats-his-name .. ?!
• I thought you knew better than that Ria. Guess not! What the hell? We're just close friends. What is wrong with you people?
• "Whoa , slow down there. You broke Mayank's heart 6 months ago. Now you're talking a lot with this guy, at least that's what the rumors state. Of course people are going to assume y'all are together. DUH."
• Even if I am dating him, IF, how is it anyone's bloody business? And guess what, I didn't "break his heart" just for my own entertainment. It wasn't workin... never mind, why should I keep explaining myself to everyone! You know what? Think whatever you want. I don't give a shit. And you can tell your 'rumor mills' to get a life and STOP. SPECULATING. ABOUT. MINE!

She didn't tell anyone but after that day, she felt her world crashing down on her. No longer was she happy about the beautiful day. She thought about what she could do to stop all this as tears streamed down her face.

Why, when she was trying her hardest to move on, were they stuffing it in her face? Why wouldn't they leave her alone? When would they ever stop judging her?

Just because she ended one relationship, did that mean they would continue to look at her this way all the time? 

She sighed. The clock struck twelve. She was going to have a long day tomorrow as well. She sniffed, wiped her face and eased herself onto the bed.

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What'd you think about that? :] 

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I really hope this is true :)

You know that feeling when you don't know anything?

You have been feeling really angry or really upset, but then gradually you just become numb? Yep,that. I'm stuck at that since past couple of days.

I have taken decisions, knowing the consequences, I did what I had to. Atleast according to me!

You know how everyone keeps saying you'll have a rough couple of months, but then things get better? The light at the end of the tunnel? Where is it? 

Life has been kind of crazy,  not the nice kind since LONG.

I lost my wallet after taking my allowance just that day =|, lost more than 1k, had to pay fine because the timings on my train coupons was wrong, I fell down which still hurts when I walk, I had to stay cooped at home all this while, walked with a stick while everybody on the road would look at me like I'm a freak =| .... So forgive me for this rant piece >_<

Last year, around February, I lost my grand aunt. She was ill and very weak but she had survived such a situation previously, so I did not,in the wildest of my dreams,imagine I'd lose her so quickly. Those times were horrible. And now my paternal grandfather is in the hospital!

The doctors are saying it's chemical pneumonia. The food particles got lodged into his food pipe. He's better now,as compared to yesterday. But he's 90, so things are complicated. 

Yesterday I was extremely scared. But right now I'm numb. I broke it up with him, I was sad and guilty and then some time later, numb. What is going on?

But, one good thing HAS come out of all this. I realized who all are really going to be there for me when I need someone. My cousin, she came bearing chocolates and goodies =D, my friend Honey rushed over when she came to know of the break up, my school bestie Tj and her guy came to visit me yesterday ^.^ . Crystal, I hope you read this. She comments on each post and I love the way she tells me the truth, constructively criticizing when needed. I love you <3 :*
I also found two amazing people from Twitter, @Battameez & @WhatTheFloyd. Meez & Pratyancha. They've kinda helped me a lot in the past few days. Knowingly & or unknowingly, they make me not feel bad about what happened, and make me smile. Beeeg thank you! =* <3
@SugarsNSpice is someone a lot of people know. Earlier she was Scribbling Gal. She blogs, she tweets. She's one amazing person I know. She helped me do what I needed,for staying sane. She picks me up when all I want to do is cry. Thank you Di! xxxx

I ranted on Twitter yesterday but got a lot of shit for that even =/ So I guess this is one place I can. Also, because I moderate the comments xD 

Anyway, yeah, that's pretty much it. Things HAVE to get better. I need them to! 

Inshallah!

Wish y'all a fun weekend. Take care

-Blahblaholic x