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I really hope this is true :)

You know that feeling when you don't know anything?

You have been feeling really angry or really upset, but then gradually you just become numb? Yep,that. I'm stuck at that since past couple of days.

I have taken decisions, knowing the consequences, I did what I had to. Atleast according to me!

You know how everyone keeps saying you'll have a rough couple of months, but then things get better? The light at the end of the tunnel? Where is it? 

Life has been kind of crazy,  not the nice kind since LONG.

I lost my wallet after taking my allowance just that day =|, lost more than 1k, had to pay fine because the timings on my train coupons was wrong, I fell down which still hurts when I walk, I had to stay cooped at home all this while, walked with a stick while everybody on the road would look at me like I'm a freak =| .... So forgive me for this rant piece >_<

Last year, around February, I lost my grand aunt. She was ill and very weak but she had survived such a situation previously, so I did not,in the wildest of my dreams,imagine I'd lose her so quickly. Those times were horrible. And now my paternal grandfather is in the hospital!

The doctors are saying it's chemical pneumonia. The food particles got lodged into his food pipe. He's better now,as compared to yesterday. But he's 90, so things are complicated. 

Yesterday I was extremely scared. But right now I'm numb. I broke it up with him, I was sad and guilty and then some time later, numb. What is going on?

But, one good thing HAS come out of all this. I realized who all are really going to be there for me when I need someone. My cousin, she came bearing chocolates and goodies =D, my friend Honey rushed over when she came to know of the break up, my school bestie Tj and her guy came to visit me yesterday ^.^ . Crystal, I hope you read this. She comments on each post and I love the way she tells me the truth, constructively criticizing when needed. I love you <3 :*
I also found two amazing people from Twitter, @Battameez & @WhatTheFloyd. Meez & Pratyancha. They've kinda helped me a lot in the past few days. Knowingly & or unknowingly, they make me not feel bad about what happened, and make me smile. Beeeg thank you! =* <3
@SugarsNSpice is someone a lot of people know. Earlier she was Scribbling Gal. She blogs, she tweets. She's one amazing person I know. She helped me do what I needed,for staying sane. She picks me up when all I want to do is cry. Thank you Di! xxxx

I ranted on Twitter yesterday but got a lot of shit for that even =/ So I guess this is one place I can. Also, because I moderate the comments xD 

Anyway, yeah, that's pretty much it. Things HAVE to get better. I need them to! 

Inshallah!

Wish y'all a fun weekend. Take care

-Blahblaholic x