They were watching her like a hawk, judging her.

(Finally I wrote a fictional post again. YAYY :D | Do read & lemme know how you found it!)

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She did things. She thought it was finally to put the past behind her, to move on.

Meera woke up early next morning, she wanted a proper new started, even if that meant going to bed early and waking up in dire need of coffee to find enough strength to brush her teeth!

She switched her phone on and went to freshen up. She returned to find 2 text messages. On was the standard spam message about winning a UK lottery. She shook her head and continued to the 2nd one.

It read :
" Hey there M! Good morning gorgeous. I wish you all the very best on this whole new start. And if you need someone to remind you that it is a brilliant plan when you start to lose faith, you have me. Have a great day! X"

This brought a radiant smile to her face! She knew she could count on him.. And this just went on to prove her right!

She replied with a thanks and went on with her day with boosted confidence.

(9 pm)

Meera had had a long day. But she felt good, she was still humming to herself. She decided to go online for a while to kind of take a break. She deserved it, she said to herself.

As she scrolled through the statuses and photos smiling every now and then, a chat box popped up.

• "How are you doing Meera?! It's been so long! What's up girl?"
• Hi .. I'm doing pretty good, thanks :) How are you?
• "What's going on in life? UPDATE ME! :D"
• Haha, not all that exciting Ria. Just a new job. It's going pretty good, today was my first day. The office looks wonderful Ria, you'd love it!
• "That sounds nice! I'm happy for you!"
• Aww. Thank you! What's new with you?
• "Ah, nothing. Same old, same old. Achha listen, what's with the new boyfriend haan?"
• I'm sorry, what? Come again? WHAT BOYFRIEND?!!
• "You're talking to me babe, drop the act. Heard you're all lovey dovey with Ranjith-whats-his-name .. ?!
• I thought you knew better than that Ria. Guess not! What the hell? We're just close friends. What is wrong with you people?
• "Whoa , slow down there. You broke Mayank's heart 6 months ago. Now you're talking a lot with this guy, at least that's what the rumors state. Of course people are going to assume y'all are together. DUH."
• Even if I am dating him, IF, how is it anyone's bloody business? And guess what, I didn't "break his heart" just for my own entertainment. It wasn't workin... never mind, why should I keep explaining myself to everyone! You know what? Think whatever you want. I don't give a shit. And you can tell your 'rumor mills' to get a life and STOP. SPECULATING. ABOUT. MINE!

She didn't tell anyone but after that day, she felt her world crashing down on her. No longer was she happy about the beautiful day. She thought about what she could do to stop all this as tears streamed down her face.

Why, when she was trying her hardest to move on, were they stuffing it in her face? Why wouldn't they leave her alone? When would they ever stop judging her?

Just because she ended one relationship, did that mean they would continue to look at her this way all the time? 

She sighed. The clock struck twelve. She was going to have a long day tomorrow as well. She sniffed, wiped her face and eased herself onto the bed.

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What'd you think about that? :] 

New Beginnings! (A Short Story)

" .. But I can't!" she ended, looking away.

"You can.. Of course you can! You know I love you, always have, always will. Just this once, forget what your mind is trying to tell you. Please, I'm begging you, begging you for one chance .."

She was hurt. And betrayed. And lost.

It took her months to begin to accept that it really was over .. Why would she want to go down the same path? Isn't it said that once you repeat it, it's no longer a mistake, it is stupidity.

"What about Perth? The cat you promised you'd get me? What about our engagement? Why?" she'd shouted that night, her mind refusing to believe he would desert her just like that.

"I know what you're thinking.. I am not him Beth, you know me!" he said, trying to convince her.

"I thought I knew him too..." she trailed off.

* 2 days later*

"You're my friend. And because of you, actually make that, thanks to you, I could survive what happened. You're why I didn't give up, you're why I threw away physically, and mentally, everything that I'd been carrying all these years. 

You're the reason I want to be new. More. Better.

And hey, I say, let's give it a try!" she messaged him.

To New Beginnings! :]

I'm Trying!

I'm trying hard to start afresh, to leave things what happened where they belong, in the past.

I don't want to end up like some emotional baggage wali woman in some movie. :P

"If you let go a little, you will have a little peace. If you let go a lot, you will have a lot of peace."


 

I don't regret it. I don't regret us, I never could. It was lovely while it lasted. =) 

Excuse the face :P Read what it says!
I hope it's true. I hope things start working out.
I need em to ..

  

This makes me sad as well as happy.

At the moment, I don't know.

Bad things and time doesn't really pass as fast as you'd wish for it to! Sigh.

Also, deaths change people. Why can't some bitches get that? Just because I'm sometimes low  doesn't make me a loser. Your branding me that surely makes YOU one! 

I hope you are happy but I swear I can't let this one go. Who the heck irritates and give crap advice when someone is grieving? You do. Aaaaaaaaargh x_x

P.S I know I've been not commenting or visiting any blogs. I'm sorry, I mean it!

I'm unwell and college is on, traffic, rain and add to that classes and everything.

I'll try to be back as soon as I can. =)

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Her Never Ending Nightmare.

I sit here, pushing down spoonfuls of ice cream down my throat. Tears stream down my face, I never knew we would fall apart. I thought it was some temporary thing.. Your parents, tension, this inflation and everything.

We used to be so amazing, I remember when J&S would always keep asking us how we'd never let it get ugly. Only if they could see us now.

Feels like it was just yesterday, when we were screaming in your living room. You saw me crying, but you kept on fighting. We fought and cried, and shouted some more. Finally, I left.

By now, just about everybody would have gotten to know.. About us.. Oh wait, there is no us anymore.

Feels like a never-ending nightmare.

"Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Coz this is hard as it gets, Is this what it feels like to really cry? Cryyy.." (Kelly Clarkson)

Her sweet scent

She stretched and looked around. She gently slid out of the bed and ran to take a shower. He saw her, sometime later, her lithe body wrapped in a towel. In his towel. Her curls cascading beyond her waist. Her strong collar bones. Her perfect Cupid-bow lips. And her eyes. Oh,those eyes! They captivated him like no other.
He took her name. She turned around with a gasp. She blushed, with her clothes ran back inside.
He was staring intently at the door. Today he'd ask her. Today he'd say all that he'd been meaning to.
She stepped out, looking very much the goddess he thought her to be. She met his eye with such passion, he had to look away. After all, he was the one responsible for the mess.
She came up to him. He made up his mind, was already preparing a speech in his head. She pushed him against the wall. He gulped. He met her eyes. The burning desire in them surprised him. She kissed him. And then she kissed him some more. He held her face in his hands, he kissed her back, almost as if he was trying to match her intensity.
She knew this was the last time she'd see him. She knew this wasn't working out. And it would damage both of them even more,if she over stayed.
She pulled back, he was looking at her with a thousand question marks in his eyes. There would be answers. But not this morning.
She kissed him again, pulling him toward her. She kissed him passionately. Like it was him she was deriving oxygen from. Like her whole life depended on him.
She memorized the way his hands would always meet at the small of her back. She memorized the intoxicating cologne-y scent of his room. The taste of his cigarette stained lips. They pulled apart what seemed ages later.
He opened his mouth to say something but he saw something in her eyes that convinced him that what was going to follow,was inevitable.
She grabbed her bags,took a last look around this second home of hers and burst out of the room. She ran down the stairs only to stop after climbing into the backseat of a cab. Then the tears began to flow. How she wished there was something she could do to work it out. She sighed deeply. They both had done their best. But maybe they were too passionate and the fire ended up burning them instead.
His eyes swept the room, searching for some kind of reminder even though he knew he'd never forget her. His eyes fell on the towel. He grabbed it like it were his lifeline, inhaling the sweet scent of her magnificent skin.

"Never thought we'd have a last kiss,
Never imagined we'd end like this,
Your name,forever the name on my lips,
Just like a last kiss."